I've always wanted to do this!  You know, write all my troubles ... good and bad and hope that someone reading it can either relate to it and know that they are not the only one feeling this way and or at least give me some good advise!  Now where to start.....  Well, I am a 35 year old female with two children.  I work part time at a job that I love... making no money, but love what I do!  I am married to a business owner and am fortunate enough to be able to work this job that I love and basically be home with my children!  However life isn't as daisy scented as it seems!  Now here's where my complaining begins and I'll try to put it all in a nut shell and go from there!  I am currently 20 pounds heavier then I ever wanted to be and feel awful about it!  Non of my clothes fit and I am feeling so depressed about it, yet I am having an AWFUL time trying to get back to the exercise and diet state of mind!  This has been bothering me for about 3-4 months but I've had no will power to do what I need to do!  I finally have made an appointment with a weight loss management center to hopefully get some inspiration!  Not like I don't know that eating veggies and fruits and mainting a 1200-1400 calorie diet is the key... YES I KNOW, but it's the emotions latley that have been getting in the way!    To top it all off I get on my husbands computer today to find a conversation that he is having with his old college girlfriend and then another link in the history for a dating site!  OMG!!  Long Long Long story short, I've caught him talking to this girl before and she's married and had a new baby and I think she just likes the attention, but who knows!  It's probably innocent but he knows I don't like it and he does it behind my back late nights!  :(  I know most of you are probably going to say leave him ...  I wish it were that easy sometimes!  I have no job, no official education (never finished college) and two kids!  He knows I can't go anywhere so I don't think he cares!  SO new plan... I need to live and be happy in my own ways since I am stuck here!  I am going to lose these 20 found pounds and once I have I am going to get my saggy child nurturing boobs done with his money!!!  I can use some support along the way (no pun intended)  so give me some sugar my new friends....

Mama needs a new purs....LIFE!